The art of taking a break

I needed it

I had to take a break because I’ve needed one.

This year has been very hard.

It started off with the police murders of two Black men that kept me awake.

I didn’t feel safe in my body.

There was a fire in my apartment building where a child died.

I didn’t feel safe in my home.

My brother was arrested for telling the police to put their guns down.

I was scared I would never see him again.

I didn’t feel like I could be safe anywhere.

I tried to keep going but I couldn’t.

So I took a break from writing this column because if I’m going to preach about the ills of capitalism, I have to do what capitalism says I’m not allowed to do, which is to stop.

I took a break from making news videos for TikTok despite this capitalist anxiety to keep going.

My soul was screaming for me to stop.

So I listened.

I’m taking a break because I deserve to rest.

I’m taking a break because you deserve to rest.

I initially thought this was going to be a short note but I just kept typing so now you know everything.

I’ll be back next week.

I hope you take the rest you need too.

I’ll leave you with these words that I colored during moments of extreme anxiety.

Coloring brings me solace.

I hope the words I colored bring you solace too.

Everybody needs care, we all need care, we all want care, we all deserve care

I want to be to be cared for, I want others to be cared for, I want to care for for others

See you next week,

❤️

Marcela